Past The Point of No Return.

Sometimes I am oblivious.

I am ignorant, in a bubble.

I do not see how bad the world is getting.

Sometimes I am sleepy.

Tired of everything.

Wasting the days away with dreams.

But Sometimes I am shocked.

Back into reality that scares me.

Back into a world of crazy.

Sometimes I wonder.

What kind of a world my children will grow up in.

If I am ever brave enough to have them in the first place.

Sometimes I think it will all be okay.

It is, after all, a bad day.

Not a bad life.

Sometimes a tragedy comes our way.

Whether it be completely personal.

Or country and world wide.

And then all of a sudden.

The world just stops turning.

And everyone thinks a lot.

Everyone thinks about how precious life is.

And what they need to do to change.

And how they can live more.

Everyone cries a lot.

Everyone watches the news a lot.

And then they cry some more.

I sit here in my bed wide awake.

The time is 12:34.

And I try to figure out the world.

I try to summon the courage I will need.

The courage to simply go on.

Because I am scared just like everyone else.

Although we all deal with tragedy in different ways.

One thing remains the same.

We are all completely terrified.

No denying it.

You could be Chuck Norris for all I care.

I know you're just as scared as I am.

Because the world is insane.

The world is spinning out of control.

The world is tearing its self apart.

And there is nothing anyone can do about it.

There was a time when we could have fixed it.
There was a time when we could have glued the world back to gether.

But I fear we have reached the point of no return.

I fear we have become oil and water.

I fear there is no way to fix what has been broken.

I am okay though.

I am strong.

I know that this is how it has to be.

I fear it will only get worse before it gets better.

I fear my children will not live past the age of 5.

I fear that there will be another world war.

I am okay though.

I am strong.

I know that this is how it has to be.

I think it is easy for us to slip into oblivion.

To become ignorant and ignore the world.

But we cannot have this luxury any more.

We cannot afford to ignore the problems.

We cannot afford to forget what happened.

We don't have a choice. 

If we forget, if we drift off into oblivion and ignorance.

If we give up, and say the war is just too hard to keep on fighting.

If we come to a point where we are so war driven and hate motivated that there is nothing left to fight for.

Then surely we have failed.

Surely we have lost the battle.
Surely we have ruined the world.

I don't want to be a failure.
I don't want to loose this battle.
I don't want to ruined the world.

I choose not to be a failure.
I choose not to loose this battle.
I choose not to ruin the world.

I choose to keep on going.
I choose to keep on fighting.
I choose to keep on pushing.

I choose to go on with life.
I choose to keep my head held high.
I choose to live, not just be alive.



What about you?